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The most important thing is to enjoy your life, to be happy, it's all that matters. -Audrey Hepburn

One-Hundred and One Things I Hate

  1. Green beans
  2. Goldfish
  3. Asparagus
  4. Dress codes
  5. Bullying
  6. Tests
  7. Homework
  8. Bugs
  9. Spiders
  10. Ruined plans
  11. Strict parents rules
  12. Getting sick
  13. Creepy people
  14. Mold
  15. Long car rides
  16. Public restrooms
  17. Having a boring life
  18. Being sad
  19. Being in a bad mood
  20. Burnt popcorn
  21. Fake watermelon flavors
  22. Doing dishes
  23. Mosquito bites
  24. Small talk
  25. Commercials
  26. Peppers
  27. Bad movie endings
  28. Fake people
  29. Peeling
  30. When I sneeze while doing mascara
  31. When my hair won’t cooperate
  32. When clothes shrink
  33. When I lose things
  34. Bragging
  35. Spring water
  36. Dog poop
  37. Not blended makeup
  38. Smoking
  39. When people try to tell me how to do things
  40. Bossy people
  41. When I can’t sleep
  42. Overthinking
  43. Bad habits
  44. Overpriced things
  45. 1% battery
  46. No wifi
  47. Dirt
  48. Close minded people
  49. Shaving
  50. When people can’t hold an interesting conversation
  51. People who don’t text back
  52. Bruises
  53. Tests
  54. The dirt that gets under my nails
  55. When ink smears
  56. Judgemental people
  57. Racism
  58. Boredom
  59. When my favorite outfit isn’t clean
  60. Maximum suitcase requirements
  61. Mistakes
  62. F’s
  63. Homework
  64. Arrogance
  65. Soggy socks
  66. Dirty tennis shoes
  67. Shipping costs
  68. Waiting
  69. The cost of plane tickets
  70. My feet
  71. Corruption
  72. Stains
  73. iPhone Glitches
  74. Rules
  75. Deodorant marks
  76. Snagged sweaters
  77. Remembering bad memories
  78. Missing the good ones
  79. Spills
  80. Avocado
  81. When people refuse to try new things
  82. How hard it is to be spontaneous
  83. Depression
  84. Raw meat
  85. Stomach aches
  86. Mysteriously losing underwear and socks
  87. Dried out pens
  88. Pressures
  89. Disappointment
  90. Drifting apart
  91. Shiny red apples
  92. Bad taste in clothing
  93. Over Anticipation
  94. Rotten and wasted food
  95. Hangnails
  96. When a lid to a container gets lost
  97. States testing
  98. Stray hairs
  99. Snakes
  100. Stupid questions
  101. Having 0 inspiration

Happiness

Ha, this is hard. Happiness is usually an everyday thing. Such as feeling happiness when you see your favorite ice cream in the freezer or seeing your favorite relative after a long time. That’s the easy stuff. Being happy and content with your life is the hard part. I cant give much reliable advice because I have to be honest, this definitely isn’t something I have, but I just wanted to kinda get my thoughts out there.

Truthfully, I don’t know if I’ll ever reach satisfaction with my life. I just want to be more, be doing more. I want to travel the world, and be a better person. I wanna help others and make a difference in a life that isn’t mine. I want to do things that actually matter to other people and not just myself. I want be spontaneous and crazy. Fill my life with adventure to cure my craving for it all. So, yeah I think eventually I could accomplish all these things, if I put my mind to it, but will I ever stop coming up with more? No, I guess it’s not a bad thing to have aspirations for your life, but until they actually happen you feel like your stuck in a rut. You think that once you reach a certain age or a certain place you can fix it all but will it? How will I ever stop wanting more and more from my life. It seems to be a terrible feeling to feel as if you aren’t using your life to it’s fullest potential. Shouldn’t that be all we strive for? But, as always their will be obstacles. Finances, parents, and rules. So, until I can over come those obstacles I still find happiness in the small things.

It’s difficult being a sixteen year old who has yet to find happiness in another person romantically as well. that’s kind of an oddity in high school. Haha, don’t worry I like boys, but I still feel as if I’m too young for all this. Maybe it’s just I can’t handle commitment yet. Or, I just haven’t found the right person. That’s what people always tell me. I don’t know, I just can’t seem to fathom being tied another person while I’m just trying to live my fullest life and figure myself out honestly. I want to be able to act freely without having to worry about someone else’s thoughts. It kind of does seem a bit self centered when I put it into words but I guess that’s why I’m just not ready. I’ve yet to find anyone who was special enough to be worth all that. I’ve always been afraid of caging myself to early.

It scares me actually because at the moment I can’t ever see myself being ready to settle down with one person and starting a life together, maybe even a family. Kids?! I can barely even handle myself. That’s terrifying. I know there’s expectations from me to be certain things. A mom. A wife. Secretly I’ve always seen myself as that girl who never really calms down. I don’t like being in one place too long and i want to go everywhere. Once I start I don’t know if I’ll ever stop or just be a jet setter all my life.

 I want to travel. I want to explore and I want to live. Right now all I really know is I have a craving for life that has yet to be tamed.

photo via happyologist.co.uk

 

Lessons Learned From Audrey.

Who better to take advice from than the original queen herself. Ever since I was a young girl and first watched Breakfast at Tiffany’s, my favorite movie,  I had been fixated with Audrey Hepburn. She had everything a girl could ever want. She was glamorous, beautiful and wise (not to mention those fierce eyebrows). Not only did I love Holly Golightly, Princess Anne and Sabrina Fairchild but the actor behind those roles. Even though I was never alive at the same time as she, I still have the feeling that I was because of the strong mark she left on the world not only through her work in film but also with her words. Just simply search her name and browse around a bit, I can guarantee you’ll understand what I mean. She loved all the normal things, fashion, makeup, and traveling but she also had passions in helping others. She was a well known supporter of UNICEF. The United Nations Children’s Fund is an organization dedicated to working in 190 countries to improve children’s lives with healthcare, nutrition, and education. Also, after Audrey’s death the Audrey Hepburn Children’s Fund was created as a non-profit to continue her work and ideals. Audrey Hepburn believed in kindness, confidence and happiness and in my opinion there’s a lot to learn from her.

  • “Nothing is impossible, The word itself says “I’m possible”                                      Believe in yourself. Anything and everything can be achieved through determination and hard work. Do not limit yourself out of fear of failing. Life was designed to include failures along with triumphs. 
  • “For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”                                                                                                                                                What you do and how you treat others will transfer over too your inner beauty, which is the most important. A nasty attitude will result in a nasty person but a caring and kind human will create a beautiful soul. In result, positivity towards others will be reciprocated and you will always have someone on your side.
  • “The best thing to hold onto in life is each other.”                                                               I say this all the time but, people are our most valuable resource hold on to your true friends to make you stronger.
  •  “The most important thing is to enjoy your life – to be happy – it’s all that matters.”                                                                                                                                              Do what brings you the most joy. No matter if its dancing, singing, or sports, do it. Personal happiness is important. Don’t deprive yourself of it out of fear of others opinions. The true friends will shine with support when you show your true self.
  • “As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.”
    Not only should you do what is best for you, do what is good for others too. Being charitable and helping others is a beautiful trait to have.
     
  • ” I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It’s probably the most important thing in a person.”
    Laughter and a good sense of humor is an important quality in a person. Learning to laugh at yourself and laugh with others is an essential skill to learn for a happy life.
  • “The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she knows.”                                                                                                                                          The most important form of beauty isn’t the visual version, bur instead what is beneath the skin. Goodness will be reflected in your inner beauty. 

For more information on Audrey’s work with UNICEF click here. 🙂

 

photocreds: unicef.org

1 A.M. Rambles

For some reason I’ve come across one of those nights where I don’t really feel tired and my mind has yet to stop racing. Even though its past one in the morning I can’t stop being that weirdo that sits here and contemplates life while everyone else is fast asleep. I question myself on my differences from others and also why some actions are taking place in my life right now. Lately, these past couple months have been full of changes and new things for me. Just a few days ago I happily finished up my sophomore year. Also, I got a car, went through a brief relationship and have made and lost some friends. As you can see life has been pretty busy and eventful but it never really seems to satisfy me. Actually, I think that’s what caused that anonymous past relationship to come to a halt and for me to end it so quickly. I can never fully satisfy myself with anything and get bored quickly. All my life  I’ve craved freedom and adventure and I guess that’s something I couldn’t get from it. I fear to be tied down and miss out on life, I guess. Yeah I know, it probably sounds goofy or stupid. Honestly, I don’t understand it myself. It’s different from a lot of other girls my age who love to have boyfriends and go on those cute little dates and spend time together. Not that I didn’t enjoy that aspect but I just couldn’t picture myself belonging to one person. I do find happiness in people but I guess I can’t commit myself to someone in fear of loosing my options and groups. I promise it isn’t as shallow as it sounds. I mean, it does feel weird sometimes being that one always single friend but I’ve kinda gotten used to it. I’ve found I enjoy crazy nights with my friends over a ” cute date” anyway. I often push people away who are interested in more than friends or a fling. Guy friends and playful flirting is fun but usually anything with strings is where I draw my lines. I can handle romance. That isn’t the problem really. There’s just something about relationships that I’m not ready for yet. Maybe I just haven’t found that person yet?  I don’t exactly know what the problem is, or even if there is a problem at all. To some people it’s seen as odd or even dark. They think I don’t believe in love or something.That really isn’t the case. I believe in love, just not for me. Not right now.

An open letter to a person with a mental illness.

First of all, please remember that your illness does not define you. You are you and not your illness. Do not let others just throw you under some category of crazy or messed up, because you’re not crazy or messed up. Even if you might be kind of messy right now it doesn’t mean things can’t change and  get better. You are amazing, intelligent, brave and unique. You are you and that in itself is incredible.

Don’t avoid or put off what your feeling. Some people are going to try and help and say things like “just be a little more positive…” or “you don’t have any reason not to be happy”. Even though they may mean well it doesn’t mean that your sadness is going to be cured with an ice cream sundae and a single happy moment, just like their’s was. Different things work for different people.

Don’t feel like a coward for wanting help. Having the courage to face the feelings and ask for help is so brave. Taking medications or going to a counselor doesn’t make you weak. Being able to face this head on and try to change is what makes you strong.

You have to want the change. Don’t bury yourself so deeply that you can’t see a way out and maybe don’t even want to. Optimism is important because you never know what coud be in store for you next around the corner. You are worth so much, let others see it and let yourself shine.

Surround yourself with positives and eliminate the toxins. People who continuously put you down are okay to walk away from. Close those doors and open new ones with people who make you happy and truly want the best for you. You are worthy of love and compassion. Do not make yourself settle for mediocre, when you deserve the world. So don’t be afraid to let people in, but chose wisely. Allies are your greatest resource.

Don’t let the illness consume you. Continue to do what you love and quit things that make you unhappy. Watch your favorite movie. Catch up with an old friend. Stuff yourself with your favorite foods. Laugh until your stomach aches, those seem to be the best ones. Do what brings you the most joy.

There isn’t anything wrong with feeling like this. Being different isn’t always a bad thing. This doesn’t mean you’re evil, or violent, or part of some other stereotype. Being different is what makes you  special… and who would wanna be just like everyone else anyway? People who think can differently are the ones who change the world.

Discover outlets and utilize them. Don’t forget that the mind that conjures up some of those dark clouds that seem to swallow you up can also create amazing things. Find something that works for you and drown yourself in it. Music, friendships, art, athletics, it can be different for everyone.

Finally, you are a beautiful, amazing and one of a kind person. Currently there are 7.125 billion other people on this earth and about 353,000 more added each day, each one is special but none of them are you. Not one person in the whole entire universe who is exactly like you. This means you are irreplaceable. Never tell yourself or let anyone else tell you differently.

You are not alone, I promise.

Love always.

Life; it only happens once.

I’ll always believe that it’s never too late to make a lifestyle change. I will never forget that short, scared, little girl, afraid to speak that I used to be not too long ago. Trust me that isn’t a good way to live life. It’s important to live up to your highest goals and do everything you were destined for. I mean, now that I look back on it I see all the things I would’ve missed out on. I’ve changed so much in the past 3 years, or in the past year even. I’ve taught myself to take chances and actually deeply feel things and experiences. I’ve learned that even though sometimes it can be pretty freaky it’s more worth while to let your guard down a little and let yourself actually feel and things will happen you’ll never forget. Although you have to accept that not everything will feel good and sometimes it could be painful but it make the good times that much more worthwhile.

In such a short time I’ve gained so much. You know how sometimes you could be doing something, anything really, and you just look around and realize this is something you’ll always remember. That’s probably one of the best feelings in the world. Like when you experience “a first” , or meet someone new. Maybe It could even be something small like a genuine happiness that you haven’t felt in a longtime or never felt better. Doesn’t matter what it is, but in that moment you just wish you infinite and could freeze time for just a little while longer. If you don’t take the chances and do the things that make you happy to get to these points you’ll miss out on so much. Come on, who doesn’t want to have those epic stories to tell 10 years from now or even to the future children of your own. Although you can only achieve these moments and memories by just putting yourself out there to just live life and experience. Be spontaneous and try to let yourself be up to trying almost anything new. Sometimes the best times are created spur of the moment, which is usually half the fun.

So, if your that kid who sits at home all day waiting for something great to happen  or always waiting for opportunities to come knocking at your door, then quit. Go out and pave the way for your own opportunities. Make things happen for yourself. Take chances and put yourself out there. Live in the moment and make each and everyone of them more special than the last. Don’t limit yourself and make the mistake that I used too. Life is short and honestly you never know when a day could be your last, so make it count.

Youre a teenager, live your life to the fullest

melancholy.

Ever since I was little, I was that girl who was in love with travel and trying new things. Anything from my first plane ride to a simple road trip made me ecstatic. I think it was always just the idea of something new and exciting that fascinated me. If you know me well then you probably know I get bored with things pretty easily and am always craving something new and maybe even crazy to switch it up. I’ve never been fully satisfied with a dull routine of life how it is. Everyday going to school the home then school and back again over and over starts to seem a bit melancholy. I never understood how anyone could be fully satisfied with it. That’s probably why I always longed for something exciting, fun and maybe unpredictable, but I’ve realized I’m probably going to have to wait for that. Right now I’m in my small, little hometown with things like they’ve always been and there’s not much to do about that, and although there’s always vacations and trips I’ll always come back here. So, yes I know New Year’s resolutions can be tacky but I kind of thought I needed it. To make the most of everything I have right now. No matter where you are you should be able to make your life exciting. You don’t need to travel far to try new things or meet new people. It’s not always about the things you can’t do but more about what you do with the opportunities you are given. All these years I was doing it all wrong, sitting back and waiting for the adventures to come to me and wondering why they never did, when actually I should have been reaching out and finding them myself. Also, it always kind of worried me that I wouldn’t be accepted if I were to do what truly made me happy, but the truth is the only person you should be trying to please is yourself. So, write your own story. Even though it might not be perfect yet, that’s what the rest of your life is for. If you do everything now you’ll be even more bored afterward anyways. Take chances and give them in return. Great things can sometimes be found in the oddest places you just have to put yourself out their a bit and look.

The Symptoms of My Insanity: A Review

Browsing library shelves I came upon this book, The Symptoms of My Insanity by Mindy Raf. I have to be honest I wasn’t really immediately drawn to this book at all like most ones I read, but after looking at my growing mountain of cliche teen romances and coming of age stories I decided it would probably be beneficial to step out of my comfort zone and branch out a little. Although this book does have a bit of a different twist, it’s surprisingly not to far from my usual reads but, in no way was that disappointing. Truthfully, when I saw this book the title and cover actually kinda appeared to be creepy to me even though that is definitely not an element in the book. After finishing the novel now I realize that the plot turned out to be completely unexpected and pretty far off from my initial assumptions.

The story starts out with Izzy, a spunky high school hypochondriac constantly paranoid with her hectic life. She’s got guys to chose, friendships to fix, her ill Mom to worry about and decisions to make. Not to mention an Italy art contest deadline looming over her head and her constant anxiety about every possible symptom she experiences known to man. Throughout the book she must make some pretty tough decisions and quite a few of the times it’s not the right ones which calls for some sacrifices too.

Izzy is quite a complex character which makes the makes it kind of hard to know what shes thinking sometimes but actually I don’t think she even knows half the time, but that’s all part of the fun. Actually one of the most interesting parts of the whole thing is seeing her mature and change as a person over the time. She finds herself and goes deeper and more inspired in her artwork than ever before.

Overall I surprised myself and actually ended up enjoying this book a lot. It’s different but also doesn’t stray to far away from the normal teenage girl, coming of age novel. Which, sorry for the cliche, but happen to be my favorite. Izzy is a easy to relate to and fun to read about. Her point of view adds edge and interest to the book when she speaks of her fears, and thoughts. Mindy Raf is a fabulous author who really knows how to make a character realistic and genuine. I would definitely recommend this book to anyone, especially with a similar taste to me. Hope you like it as much as I did.

xox. Happy Reading!

Stress Test

Oh look it’s that time of the year again, exam week. Yes, I know that most peoples exams have already begun but if your anything like me (Unofficial Queen of Procrastination) your mind is on anything but studying and you’ve still got quite a lot left to do. Come on! Christmas is next week and what’s more interesting… Logarithms and MLA format or cookies and Santa. Pretty sure that’s kinda obvious. So, even though studying might not be your first choice in “fun” activities it’s kind of important and essential if you want to ya know, pass?

Sometimes skimming through notes and examples just doesn’t cut it for everyone, well not me at least.  I’m a pretty firm believer in the power of a good old fashioned flash card. Although these days if your in the mood a more tech savvy approach, then quizlet can be your new BFF. In addition, you’ve got programs like Wolfram Alpha, Photo Math, Khan Academy, and Spark Notes for some actual subject help.

So, you know all those review sheets the teachers always hand out a bit before the exam for you to do but usually just end up blank or in the trash? Then the minutes after the exam you come to the realization of how helpful it would have been to not slack off and actually do the work? Yeah. Now you’ve learned you’re lesson. Just do them this time and save yourself some grief.

Finally don’t drown yourself in your studies. Spread out the work and don’t be afraid to take a little study break from time to time to reward yourself. Overloading and cramming at the last minute is

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